I'm not Barbie.
I’m not barbie, I can’t just come over and tell you that I want us to be together. Not after I have been told that you’re not a virgin. And after all, I’m not a barbie, and not close to a barbie, so I ain’t gonna be your second one in the near future. Everyone says that we are on the same vibe, that we look cute together, that we look like a couple. Are you the...
I find it very easy to communicate and to express myself in English than Hebrew, my mother’s language. English is so beautiful, it if filled with this nice words and I just love it :)
It's hard being me.
I honestly say this, without being arrogant, it is hard being me. I start my week on sunday, I live in Israel so our day off is on saturday and half of friday. I start the week on 6:55 am on sunday, after I probably fell asleep after 23:30 the night before. I am at school for about 35-45 hours of learning stuff. I go to 2 Zumba lessons a week and 1 Pilates lesson if i feel like it that week....
I keep on feeding myself with the same crap, you know like ; I will find my true love, the one who will love me as I am and will spoil me and cherish. The one who won’t look at my looks and will look at my inside. But we all know that its isn’t true. Everyone fakes, lies, everyone looks on your outside, judges you. Yeah yeah, even me, I know and I admit it. I judge people....
I’ll tell you the truth, I don’t feel good about myself. Actually, I think I’ve never felt good about myself for a long time. Maybe for a day or so. I can be in the shortest or a topless dress and feel bad about myself, it might be my big fat hands or my big fat boobs that can’t be held by a topless bra. I can be in love in someone and know that there is no hope because...
So the last four days I was sick, I had a bad virus, And I barely ate something. Maybe chicken soup or a salad.. And I weighted before I was sick and I was 87.5 kg And now, after 4 days of being sick I am 84.4 And I can’t even believe ..! And I know that this isn’t count.. I was sick and haven’t counted calories or anything but it is a good start for my new fresh start .. For my new life,...
A fresh new start
I think that I need a new start. I need to start with a blank page, and be a new me. At the weight of about 88 and a height of about 167 cm, I am starting a new way of life. Not a diet, because a diet is not forever. I am starting to live, the life I’m supposed to live. I’m changing now. I will workout, I will run and jog and cycle and swim. I will eat healthy. I will...